[bLeeding...n screaming in silence....]

im suck

2006-09-23T14:03:00.000+08:00

im bored. no one visit me at work..hur hur..
tmrw fasting. n i have to work. haiz....tot of break my fast at hm BUT well have to work...confirm kena da sh*ts frm my mum...

k lar..gtg. going out ltr..weEe~~

..............

2006-08-26T14:37:00.000+08:00

eloez evrybody...been sooo Long since i update sumting here...well da word is simply LAZY....wahahha..

newayz, exam over so enjoy n party hard..went sentosa tat dae...its all gals dae out...kewl, had fun though we reached der kinda late..hmmph..didnt get to sun tan...hmmpph!! hehe..nvm nxt tues going again...wee~

working ltr at 6pm. doing closing like duh! working again tmrw....well i guez im gonna work evry single dae starting next wk...maklum lar exam dah abis.

k ppl i gtg...maeb some other time i'll update here....

2006-07-27T13:39:00.000+08:00

juz few words...im plain lazy lar...

as usual im bz wit skol....me bz wit skol?? neva go skol ader ar..wahaha!! anw, exam is juz round da corner. betta start studying. wait! how to study?? no book.... yakin boleh je.....=) ive got 3 papers n da dates for da papers its like 2 to 3 daes apart only....last paper is on 28 aug..how am i going to study seh....im dead shit!!

watz happening to me? im so fcuking lazy nowadays..

plz sumone..knock some sense on me. knock hard plz! thank you!

im lazy

2006-07-07T12:13:00.000+08:00

FINALLY i pierced my lips!!! woOhoO~

n my lips is swollen...boOohoO!!

going shopping later...

ok bye!!

2006-07-02T12:59:00.001+08:00

Germany is in. wee~ yeepy!!

Argentina n England is out....so sad..

n da most shocking one...Brazil is OUT!!! what happend?? aiyoh....disappointed lar..

nah ambek ni..;p

2006-07-02T12:59:00.000+08:00

k ppl...im updating now.....

hmm wat have i been doing for da pass few daez......

met my darling nadia n have lunch wit her. lepak wit her.

caught da movie Superman Returns...kewl. cute! hahakz...thnx to sher's mum. hehehe...n damn wasted to da comp tix!! sori eh sher....

had dis tarrot card reading...it was so damn true lor...n da person said tat my life for tis yr will be happy n i'll alwaez have good luck...kewl rite!! haha! N ive got no problem wit money coz i will alwaez get my money allowence....true true!! ;p N da best part...im da kind of person who give love to ppl around me BUT i dun love myself....well, kinda true...wahahahha!!

N finally he msg me!!! hehehe.. happy? definitely!! excited? damn yeah!! wee~

supposed to work todae but im so lazy. ask for replacement n go out for a date..hehehe..
k dah! my story ends here....

to SHER n SUE...dah puas dah??? wahahaha...

till den.. i lurve ya all!! :) but i tink i need to lurve myself more......

those daez.

2006-06-23T14:41:00.000+08:00

let see wat have ive been doing for da past few daez....

Monday
my parents came back. so me no work. stayed at hm to welcome dem back..(like some superstar ehk..hehe) had a big feast wit family n relatives. n i eat non-stop like a pig...yeah i tink mmg patut i call myself lil piggy..hish!!

Tuesday
hmm cant seems to remember wat i did..oh i went out wit my parents go my aunt's house. ive got a newborn niece..hehe so cute lar she..congratz to my kakak sdare. supposed to go mustafah cntre but tak jadi..pemals satu2..hehehe.

Wednesday
finally i work..closing..after work went to watch da argentina vs holland match...n it was plain boring! no score.. damn! reached hm arnd 7am. was so shagged. slept like a pig..heh. woke up at 3 to get ready for work again....haiz.. no life ar..

Thursday
work closing wit yati..hmmm..yeah yeah.. but we have to stay till late coz we had to do some spring cleaning....had fun cleaning up..wit all da craps they did yest. juz simply lame lar..hahah..kewlness! eating while cleaning.....nice!

n todae, fri, working at eastpoint...n guez im working wit who?? yeah u guezed it rite...aiyoh..boring! nvm i have to talk to her anw coz i guez she's da only person tat i noe..hmm.
hei...cant wait for tmrw!! Sentosa here i come..wee~~

k tatz all folks.....till den.. i guez my hols has not gone to waste..hehehe..

oohh..cant wait to go pulau tioman....so kewl!! i can hear da island calling out my name...wahahha..k im lame...

juz a random one.

2006-06-19T02:10:00.001+08:00

You're the USED.

You love, but it hurts.

But you don't stop believing in it though.

You love to love and you gain suffering from it.

That's why you usually scream your pain away.

Keep screaming, it helps sometimes.

forgive me?

2006-06-19T02:10:00.000+08:00

yeah..juz got back frm jb..damn it!! tired seh...k da main purpose of going der is juz to eat n watch soccer n went back to my aunt's house. so i tot i culd make it for da st john's trip. BUT in da end i slept thru out da wee morning n realised it was like 3 pm wen woke up!!! oh gosh! i felt so terrible seh...damn iT! i cant contact u ppl n im reali reali SORRY!! seriously, i am so so sorry..i noe u ppl are angry towards me. i knew tat. im so sorry...arggh i feel so bad. wanted to call sher wen got back here but dun want to lar. coz confirm u n da others will yeLL at me...oh gosh!! im so mean...im so sorry guyz..... i know ive let u all dwn...

im sorry...im sorry...im sorry....i feel so bad....arrrrgghhh!!

all alone.

2006-06-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

one whole dae at hm...feeling so like a piggy. eat, watch tv, online. boring? not reali coz im ruling da house now!! wOohOo~ my granny is away at wdlnd n im supposed to follow her to stay over der but ive got work for da nxt 3 daez straight! morning shift lagi..aiyoh!

i miz my mum, dad n my two sis... miz dem so much...cant wait for dem to come back..n i miz my granny too....hehe. n i miz U too... ;p

im happy...so happy...

k bye! cant wait for sher's treat!!!! hehehehhehe.......

0906

2006-06-10T00:04:00.000+08:00

finally im relieved! everything has been let out. having a break for now. juz wait for da nxt month..

with this knife i'll cut out the part of me
the part that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you

yes ar!! World Cup is here!!! woOhOO~ me support definitely GERMANY!! =) catching da game ltr..

im so lonely here..so quiet..miz my sis kerenahs...haiz...my house is so dead! my granny is sleeping alreadi. no one to talk to *sob sob*

k till den...

i wont see you tonite.

2006-06-06T15:29:00.001+08:00

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,I cared for and loved

Building up, inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me, you're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name, I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me,I cared for and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that way
please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone. Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone, everything will be alright.
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

2006-06-06T15:29:00.000+08:00

didnt go skol todae..it was raining heavily so decided not to go. furthermore i wanted to spend more time wit my family..=)

tonite pay day..wOohOo~ finally im 'rich'..wahahha! gonna shop till i drop. gonna make a piercing at da side of my mouth..kewlness!! hehe...

fri is anoder dae for me n my colleagues melepak, have supper n watch soccer!! weE~ germany vs costa rica......germany will win lar.... oh btw mr patrick support germany too....yeA!!

hmm notink much i guezz....oh dat fri was HELL of FUN!!! hahaha!!

till den......gd Bye!

i am wat i am.

2006-05-31T13:49:00.000+08:00

yeah ive watched X-Men 3...finally!! hehe..it was nice and touching too. me n nadia was like clueless bout da movie while da 2 guyz were so enthusiastic bout it....haha! but wateva it is da movie was great n i like! in the end, 3 of dem died..so sad..k shuddup! wonder if ders part 4..hmmm..

im working ltr at 5pm...

cant wait for fri, 2nd June...lets dance naked under da moonlight.....wOohOo~

n im moving on wit my life.....congratz to me! =)

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

n i dun tink im ready for da next relationship anymore..guez im tired of it..lets juz be single for da moment...im 'single' but not ready to mingle....heheheh

time checked:3.41pm

2006-05-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

N wat da hell am i still doing in skol on wed at dis hr??..eerrmm riitee...

yest skipped skol.was actuali late so might as well no need to go. met my kuzin went to her house n ate FREE lunch der..haha! save my money. speaking of money, im like so brOke!! no choice but to ask my mum for money..ish so maLu! went hm early but ended up at pasir ris beach wit a fren..watching da stars shining up in da sky..nice! try to figure out shapes of da clouds..cOoLnesS! had a nice conversation..:) have to sae, da tues nite was niCe!! :)

working ltr at 7pm wit my Mr Patrick!! wee~ i bet sher is smiling frm ear to ear....riiittee??? haha. i miss da craziness at work!!

n dang! have to stop skipping lesson!! sumbody plz knock me!! aArrgGhh!!

k bye! im off!!

boring.boring.boring..

2006-05-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

was bored in lab...im supposed to edit pix, any pix for my assignment n i have no clue wat to do!! dang! but anw ive got dis pic..heheh..n anoder one..

kewl huh...hahaha! im freaking boRed! haiz.....

had a nice chat last nite...hehe..been so long since i talked on fon at nite..wee~

movie bites.

2006-05-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah....Da Vinci Code tmrw!! i wanna watch!! Anybody care to join me........hehehhehe

thursday morning.

2006-05-11T10:47:00.000+08:00

time checked: 10.46am

finally i went for my first thurs lab which i didnt even go since da first wk..haha! im so sleepy..tired..cant even open my eyes..my contact lense suck! haiz....
had breakfast wit my kuzin at mac juz now. been some time since i had breakfast..waduhh sungguh sedap sih...heheh. kenyang jap aku ni.

anw, yest went shopping wit my kuzin. bought a strips bag n i still dunnoe whether da bag suits me..hmm.. nvm! tmrw holidae..wee~ but im workin in da evening. haiz! but nvm kate bz woman pe...

hmm i dunnoe watz gonna happen btwn me n him. had a quarrel wit him 3 daez ago. reali cant take it anymore. cut da story short, i now self-declared tat im single...no use of us going on for yrs wen we seldom meet each other n he's not even der for me. enuf of his shitz n im tired of tis game. i said sori but he didnt even reply back. wat da heck?! guyz...freaking high ego!! why muz i alwaez give in?? my patience for him is beyond my limits. no way am i gonna give him another chance. i dun give a shit bout it anymore. evry nite i think n cry for him. but watz da use? waste da tears i cried. 4 freaking yrs of notink..but den again i dun feel regret or wasted da yrs. simply bcoz ive got my galfrenz n my bestfrenz by my side. Thnk yOu so much!! i reali appreciate it!! :) witout u guyz i dun tink i can move on wit my life. thnk god i worked. working reali makes me forget bout him. n thnks to my colleagues too...i lUv u guyz!! :)

why is my life such a mess?? is tis some kind of a test for me??

2006-05-08T16:04:00.000+08:00

helo hi!! haha..been so long seh. anw ive watched MI3 alreadi!! sori darlings..i noe im supposed to watched wit u all but hmm cant resist lar. so watched tat sun mornin reached hm rnd 6+am. n so sori to sher for keeping u waiting.. was so tired ar beb! heh!

finally got my pay!! wee~ n da damn training pay is in like finally!! now i can go shoppin till i drop!! cant wait! lotz of stuff i wanna buy. but hei need to safe up too ya noe.
anw now me in my graphic design lab. having break so i update sum shitz here..;p sha is like 'entertaining' her fav lecturer. n im like laughung at her..ooppxx... im bored! damn bored! tat nadia is at home..rotting i guez..haha!

mirah ajak go bar none. but both khai cannot. sher dunnoe. i wanna go BUT...i also dunnoe lar.....

Get to know yourself better

2006-04-27T17:53:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. -i dunnoe bout dis..hmmmm

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

song of da month??

2006-04-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

my galfrenz are all singing to this song. n so now im kinda of liking da song..hehe..da lyrics is meaningful seh..nice!

"aku punya teman

teman sepermainan

kemana ada dia selalu ada aku

dia amat manis

juga baik hati

dia selalu ada

waktu untuk membantuku

namun aku bingung

ketika dia bilang cinta

dan dia juga katakan

tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

cukuplah saja berteman denganku

janganlah kau meminta lebih

ku tak mungkin mencintaimu

kita berteman saja

teman tapi mesra

aku memang suka pada dirimu

namun aku ada yg punya

lebih baik kita berteman

kita berteman saja

teman tapi mesra

aku punya teman

teman sepermainan

kemana ada dia selalu ada aku"

boring thursday.

2006-04-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

second week of skol.

as usual didnt attend most of da lessons. simply bcoz woke up LATE..so yeah. yest was working n my partners were like talking bout tis gal. bout her attitude, her character, her lies..blah blah..n i cant believe tat those ppl who knew her reali hate her to the core...guez im not alone..haha! ders juz sumtink wrong wit her. sumting's not rite in her mind, in her life. sum1 reali needs to talk to her. knock some sense at her. make her realise wat happened out der. k enuf bout her.

ltr gonna have steamboat again..hahah!! kewl...i loike!! n of course gonna sabo hairil ltr at nite...cant wait....;p
k go...now im getting hungry..uurrghh...

de dae.

2006-04-22T17:41:00.000+08:00

aahhh DAMN!!! im gonna attached at Lido dis tues!! aarrgghh...wat da heck?! doing closing summore....haiz! but nvm as long as i can work i'll be a bit satisfied lar.

anw...todae my sis bdae..so hapi 17th bdae to u dear gal!! hapi alwaez n yeah study smart not hard...pressie otw lar. wait je ehk..;p

ltr at nite goin for my aunt's wedding dinner. for now juz reached hm frm there. very tired. very sleepy. i need food. more food...

tmrw will be working. do closing...finally gotta work. i miss da gengs der....

Lazy ass.

2006-04-20T14:06:00.000+08:00

todae didnt go skol. well da reason is simply LAZY!! heh..nah actuali me got diarrhea...(is tat h ow u spell it??) tat was in da morning. but now feeling ok...can ar not bad..haha!

i reali need da money badly. been waiting for him to call back like buah tak jatoh!! haiz....msg also no use...eeiiii geramnye!! nvm sabar...wateva!

sun work...cant wait! i mis working......

skol was.........

2006-04-19T16:42:00.000+08:00

skol was hmmm ok lar...notink much. as usual. first dae only attend one lab. second dae didnt even go class. todae only one lab so juz go n thnk god ive got a fren whom i noe...hahah!!

still in skol. in dya's lab. haiz so boring! *yawn* wanted to go back but no mood. so here i am stuck here in skol.

where shall i go after dis?? hmmm....

old yet young...;p

2006-04-15T12:59:00.000+08:00

HApi bdae to me! wee~~ hAPi BdAE TO me!! woOhOO!! hapi bdae to meEe!!..hapi bdae tO ME!!! woOwEe~~
gee im 20 yrs old alreadi...so old..aiyah! but hei old at age BUT young at heart...;p newayz thnx for da wishes all of u gave. reali appreciate it so much. lurve u all!! *muackx* n im thankful tat i could celebrate anoder yr of my bdae... :) so excited!!

had a mini supper wit my 2 darlings at tcc. milkshakes, wedges, soup. had fun taking pix. pose here n der..hehe! den we walked back frm clarke quey to somerset...n both mirah n sher were so excited tat dey got FREE food frm starbucks. see u both are lucky..wahahaha! tak sia2 send me der....;p n i had da huge supper wit my working peeps. had stingray, spring chicken n kang kong...stayed der till like 4am. we played cards. did stupid forfeit. total fun man yest...next supper will be dis sun...wee~

im supposed to go malaysia todae...BUT my parents had left witout me...hur hur..so sad. i was sound asleep n didint realise dey went off alreadi!! :( now im stuck here at hm. doing notink. juz woke up..haiz...so tired. but i wanna go out!! im B.O.R.E.D!

i tink i hate u?

2006-04-12T11:37:00.000+08:00

had a fight wit him..well not exactly a fight juz a quarrel..haiz.....wat da heck!! started my dae wit dis shitz...fcuk it lar! why guyz have such high ego?? why do guyz alwaez wanna win?? why cant dey juz give in for once?? WHY... bLoody why??!! fcuk dem ar!!

My hands are at your throat

And I think I hate you

But still we'll say, "remember when"

Just like we always do

Until the day I die

I'll spill my heart for you

Until the day I die

I'll spill my heart for you.......

tis week.

2006-04-06T11:42:00.000+08:00

THURS- OFF.

FRI- work.

and fri nite will be havin supper.....menu: self-made Steam boat plus barbecue-ing

SAT- OFF. will be going shopping!! wee~

SUN- work. haiz....

mia???

2006-03-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

HEI!!! i miss writing shItz here...heheh! bz lar wit work...n sum1 decided to go MIA for like 1 month. n in my heart i was like wat d heck??? but in da end we broke da rulez ..waHahha! like wat khai saez, "rules are meant to be broken in evry game..." kinda true huh...n so we met yest at tamp n yes i reali miss da lepaking seh....

me now at my kuzin's house..finally i got to meet her n overnite her house...been some time since i come over her house...she's now studying beside me for her exams next wk while ME hapily using her comp..hahhahah!! how fun!! ;p

tmrw goin out. supposed to celebrate ikhma's bdae tmrw but she has to celebrate wit her family. n have no idea if she's free on fri..hmm... hopefully she can make it..n been some time since we see her seh....miz her!!

fri working..
sat working..
sun working.....
haiz...such a bz life....cheh like real.........

mondae bLues.

2006-03-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

time checked: 1445hr
haiz juz woke up frm my LaLa land n found out no one's at hm...hmmpphh im all alone for now..my sis all went out dunnoe go where. oh yeah juz realized its da 1 wk hols. dUh!!

newayz yest me working n tat sum1 supposed to meet me lar n i waited like buah tak jatoh n realized she didnt bring her hp...ler...nvm thankfully my working partners were staying for supper so i joined dem. no regrets staying till closing seh...got tom yam, chicken wings...hahahh nice!! as for todae's menu is chilli crab!! wOohoOo!! shld i go?? hmmm....c how lar.. been some time since i had tis supper gathering wit dem. n i did one stupid thing...hmmm... nvm no need to noe. played tis number game. laughed non-stop. laugh smpai perot nak pecah...aiyoh...crazy man tis ppl.

going out ltr. but dunnoe where.. any ideas?? nvm i'll tink bout it ltr. my dear wanna meet but dunnoe lar he jadi or not. muz be sleeping now like a pig at hm..oOPpz!! so boring at hm. nadia is in skol. doing her proj. da rest?? i dunnoe. while ME at hm writing tis shtz dwn...blaze da music damn LOUD!! oohhh i lOike!

k lar need to mandi..heh! i noe i stinks like wateva!! till den........
weE~ tmrw working........=)

draw my house.

2006-03-07T11:38:00.000+08:00

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

hmm some of it quite true..but me long for love?? eerrr dunnoe bout tat..heh! kind of cool uh... :)

all tanned up.

2006-03-04T11:18:00.000+08:00

gee im so dark seh...wat can i sae..thurs go swimming. da nxt dae go sentosa...n berendam like baby hippo in da sea..haha! overall it was fun...after a yr waiting n finally stepped dwn at sentosa island...;p da weather was fine. mr sunshine was up n hey i luv it though it was blazing hot...took lotz of pix. psst sHer!! dun forget to upload eh..n i want MIKE pix pLz!!!! we all had fun but dya has to go off early due to family gathering. while miss mirah arrived later n end up tak mandi..hurhur!! n da best thing is me n sher found a $2 note in da sea..hehe how lucky! if only itz $50 ehk...hahahah!! nxt time around lar i guez..yeah like as if..

went off rnd 7+pm. da guyz n hadijah went back hm while we 3 galz went ktm to makan...reached hm late n found out tat my parents all go makan at sempang bedok..damn!! wasted seh...i miss eating der..

haiz..todae working..cancel my plan going chalet n do ghost hunting..wasted! but ders other daez...reali miz working seh..dah lamer tak jejak tmpt keje tu...

nxt outing...camping at ubin..still pending but hopefully jadi..i miz dat place..hahah

ye ye over.

2006-03-02T14:01:00.000+08:00

FINALLY ITZ OVER!!
partying time for me!! weE~~ kiasu man..blog twice in one dae..haha! newayz now me in lab wit dya n zaida. witing for zaida finish her last bitz of proj..haiz gal biler mau game!! hehehhe....while me n dya sempat 'berbloggin' here..heh! check out dya blog..stoopid craps me n she wrote..yeah yeah wateva...;p

going jurong ltr on. still waitin for sher reply...oitz!! maner ko lar!! tot of going sentosa tmrw coz da stoopid meeting thingy is brought forward to sat..so yeah..wateva!! oh sat got chalet. hmm shld i overnite or no??..hmm n shld i bring my dear or not?? hmm i guez NO im not bringing him along..ltr cannot enjoy..waHahhah!! evil me!

k till i c u again....wahhaahhHa!! dah giler aku ni..hmmm...

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2006-03-02T09:39:00.000+08:00

last paper todae...

after tat im goin to enjoy myself..

throw all da notes i have..

dun wanna open any skol books till nxt sem..haha!

AND

jump into da swimming pool..

wEe~~

bye!

in skol. mugging.

2006-02-28T11:06:00.000+08:00

one more paper to go..woOohoO!! cant wait...ya ya i noe u all will like wat?? got paper....n u will like huh?? still got paper..me finish alreadi...hehe....(sape mkn chili dier terase pedas...)wahahhahah!! u noe i noe lar...;p k stop it lar...

im so stressed up wit exam seh...haiz still cant belive ive got 4 papers to do...now left one..juz pray hard i can make it!! *crossed finger* anw im studying first for da next sem so i can enjoy my BREAK!! wEe~ all da best to those who are having attachment or proj first!! haha! heard they only hav 1 wk break..ish ish kesiannye.... well too bad!! waHAhah!!

still cant believe my dear fainted while goin work. da nxt thing he noticed he's in da ambulance...tatz wat he claims. n i have to go all da way to hospt to "visit" him early in morning...thnk god my paper is in da noon..if not kirim slm je lar ye....he on da bed playing wit his fon while me mcm budak i-dunnoe-wat-to-sae study der beside him....like wat da heck?! yeah..stoopid! but i luv him to bitz!! ;)

im here all alone in lib. borin~ *yawn* zaida went off. now waiting for nadia. u sher lazy bUm!! hahahah..newayz Gd Luck for ya LAST paper tmrw....hmmm menyampah...;p

*hungry*

miss you? miss me?

2006-02-16T12:00:00.000+08:00

mOrnin!! moRning!!..no wait its like 12 noon so afternoon to u all..heh! went skol yest to hand in report. saw lotz of pple studying for their test..waHahha!! all da best ye...n to dYa u can do it!! one more dae n done wit test....n plz check ya venue first thnk u! hahaha...aiyah msg dat sumone ar neva reply back seh....throw u inside da pond then u noe ar sher....hahaha!!

went wdlnd wit dya n saw izmah at cwp food court...she look different seh..wit her long hair..n her blue specky...i didnt recognize her at first till i had a good hard look at her...like her specs..nice! went to lepak near da mrt track der n enjoy da wind blowing...very cooling, very relaxing..dah mcm kat beach...BUT still wanna go to da beach lar.....sentosa!! looking forward to our plans after exam...cant wait!! so hopefully we 'acheive' wat we plan eh....hehehehe...

reali miss jamming. nvm after exam gonna have session n practice hard on my bass...n maeb i can learn drums frm da other nadiah...cooL!! ;p dya is looking for vocalist n drummer. she found 2 pple n still wondering who to take...a 25 yr old guy or nyp gal?? we'll see how...

39 more daez waiting patiently here...haiz!!

Vdae? wat da heck?!..

2006-02-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

was bored at home so sat infront of dis bloody comp n update tis stoopid pic...

heI!! yeah finally i update sumthing here..been bz wit my dreadful life..haiz..working non-stop...n finally i took off for 3 weeks!! yuP!! so now i can spend all my time wit my darling frenz and family. :)
was pissed wit someone's attitude. well dun wanna sae anything here...u noe i noe lar ehk..k juz drop da subject and move on. exam is like nxt 2 wks. start studying? yeah rite...im having fun n enjoying myself lagi ader..hahah! so lazy to study for now..will study soon k..SOON!!

valentine's day todae. saw lotz of couple evrywhere wit flowers and heart-shaped balloon..watz da use of showing ya luv on tis dae only? stupid rite??..u can show ya luv evryday pe..tul tak? maeb we shld hate each other on dis dae..wahAHahah!! stupid! wateva it is i dun celebrate dis thing.....well didnt even celebrate da whole of my life!! yeah....

23rd Feb is de day...and he's gonna in db soon...aiyah wat da heck!! stoopid!! haiz..guez i'll celebrate alone lar....

Bukit Timah Nature Reserve.

2006-01-31T21:22:00.000+08:00

eLoez...juz got back hm here...wah very-the-tired seh...isH!! but had fun overall...so yeah! met da peeps at tamp intchnge n was actuali supposed to meet at 8.30am BUT i ended up meetin dem at 9...heheh!! kate janji melayu pe....waHAhah!! reached Bukit Timah Hill rnd 12 noon n we started our trekking adventure!! da sLope is freaking steep!!!! i was like having difficulty of walking up n of course mcm nak tejatoh seh...cant imagine how im gonna fell seh...(teringat ikhma's 'tragedy'....hehhehe) took bout 2 hrs to complete our trekking...very fast ehk..but den again we didnt saw da quarry..only saw da 'longkang fall'....or was it a pond?? tatz wat sher claims..hahahah!! mirah was dehydrated coz she puase...endure mirah!! endure!!! hehehe...have to sae tis... congratz to ya coz u made it gaL!! ;) nxt time dun puase wen we havin adventure ehk nanti u faint no one will help except for da 'cute' monkeys der...hahah!! k stop it zRah!

went off rnd 3pm n ikhma went off first coz she got sumtink up den both helmi n aidil left nxt. so left da 6 of us. went bukit timah plaza n sat at kfc. had a long conversation. telling ghost stories...waH sher nxt time tag me along for ya nxt chalet ehk....heheheh!! da guyz went off n left we 3 galz...i ate again..yes AGAIN!! hungry mah...;p me kalah org puase ehk..hehe!

hmm comparing ubin n bukit timah, i still prefer ubin.....so hey peeps wen wanna go ubin nxt??.....:) but i still wanna go sentosa!! hahahaha.....

alritez...eyes cannot take it alreadi...need some sleep coz i only slept for like 3 hrs only yest...so gD nitez..sLeep tite...sweeT nitemares..................

something missing.

2006-01-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

tiring week...well went to watch Fearless yest..sad movie i shall sae...sad ending too...:( finally gotta watch a movie..been some time since i watch movie seh....
tmrw work as usual till mon.....extra pay here i come plus hangbao too!! waHahahha!!..bLuek! lotz of plan coming....even wrote dwn a list of wat we wanna do....semangat eh..hopefully jadi lar..hahaha! food hunting, camping, hiking, movie marathon n da list goes on and on.....hehe!

haiz...i dunnoe watz happening between me n my life...or shld i sae my love life?? reali confuse, reali lost...haiz...is he reali meant for me? does he appreciate me? ntah lar eh....i dunnoe..i juz feel like we wont last long...ders sumtink missing in dis relationship...trying to figure it out wat....reali need to talk to him bout dis. i dun wanna wait any more longer..but wen?! datz da question...wen im going to brave myself n go straight to him?....haiz.....be strong gal...juz be strong...

im tired need some rest......

LAZY me.

2006-01-17T11:25:00.000+08:00

haiz...lazy week for me..didnt even attend class yest..buang mase je dtg skol..heh! i reali dunnoe why im so pemalas tis few weeks...am i still interested in studying? or juz wanna work? haiz.....dunnoe lar ehk..

went town yest wit yati n dya. n went to play pool after so long....well i reali dunnoe whether its my dae or wat i won most of da games...hahahha!! seriously i dunnoe how i can win seh..hmmm.. juz my luck i guez..heh! went back to tamp n met up wit 2 of my darlings. bought purple marshmellow..yUmmy! n went at da 4th storey n sat der..xchange some songs n mirah reali kena rabak by sher..haHa!! laugh till u cry eh..;p nice one gal!! nak kena kan me?? tak dpt lar!! waHAhah!! wait long long eh gal...reached hm lepak wit my granny n sisters watch dia. cant believe im addicted to tat series...makes me wanna watch it evry wk BUT realised i got nite class evry mon..gRrr!! since wen i watch tis kind of show..hah!

todae will be anoder boring dae for me..only have one lecture n dunnoe wat to do after tat...hmmm..

i want choc!! need choc badly......

tired week. lazy me..

2006-01-13T15:13:00.000+08:00

maths test todae..hmm wonder how's da paper looks like...was very tired for da past few daez. not enuf rest i guez..ish! slept for only 2 hrs past two daez...tiring week for me seh...
followed my dear shopping yest...so cerewet but not as choosy as me ar..heh!! supposed to watch movie but too tired n was raining heavily so we juz went home n SLEEP!! ;p

skool is havin a gig todae at 6pm in a room....tot da thing is at da dome but no..well we'll juz see how it goes...My Precious is performin so gonna see how good they are...hahaha!!

k notink much...will be back again some other time..wahAHaha!!

k gO!!

enjoying my week~

2006-01-09T14:34:00.000+08:00

tis week no skol for me...wEe~ im enjoying anoder one week of holidae..hahah!! all da best to those who are skoling!! ;p
was working yest n two of my colleagues were drunk!! yeah talk craps all da way but had fun ar...as usual wat do u expect! was raining heavily yest n todae too..wanted to go out but hmm will juz see how.
watched the dark tat dae wit my dear..n peepz plz dun watch da movie. it sUck!! yeah cant reali understand da ending...almost evry1 in da theater said da movie sux! heh!! hei final destination 3 coming out nxt mnth!! anyone care to watch wit me....;) wanna do a movie marathon ar....been some time since i did tat...
meetin my dear again todae..goin bugis to look for faded jeans...im havin a hard time looking for one..cant even find da best seh...my fren recommend me levis..hmmm no money lar..so will juz find a cheap one lar eh...

tired.boring.missing sum1...

2006-01-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

tiring dae todae..
went work juz now instead to skol..heh!
work was fun..wit those bunch of 'idiotic' morons...including me...hahah!
tmrw work again till closing...haiz...
need to go skol early tmrw coz got maths make up lesson...n i havnt done da assignment!! damn!
todae my first dae for tat thing!!! aaRggH!!
got a msg frm my dear wen i was like thinking bout him yest...ish! freaky uh.....
reached hm early todae..heh! achievement??..hmm.....
guez tmrw will be a LoOoong dae for me.....

k tatz all!
BYE!!

sway...

2006-01-05T08:18:00.000+08:00

woke up DAMN early todae..juz to do some skol shitz here..so yeah.. haiz so sLeepy...
decided not to go skol todae instead go work(heh!) coz they need a partner so i voluntered myself...
went to watch movie last nite n didnt have da time to catch da last train n so ended up taking da cab..wonder how much is da fare..hmmm.. was very tired yest no idea y..maeb bcoz of da test ive sat yest? well dun ask bout da paper..IT SUCK!! yeah...

life reali changed a lot.(wait i did mention this in my last entry? haha..) newayz, eva since i started workin at starbucks, ive been so occupied till ive got no time to spend wit my family n frenz. den i realized how hard workin life cum studyin could be. mornin skol, evenin work. no life man! but wen ure reali in need , u have to do it. well itz a once in a lifetime experience i guez...;) or is tis how my future turns out to be now? me da career lady? ive alwaez tot tat im a LAZY BUM! i dunnoe....

i wonder watz gonna happen to all of my frenship tat ive made? frm da very first frenship i had till now. made promises. saying 'hope our frenship will last long'. now den i realised all those are bullshit. itz not tat i dun believe on tat but i noticed something is missing. well wat can i sae promises are mend to be broken i guez... but den again, i dun want any of my frenship gone to drain juz like tat..ive had enuf of it alreadi...since pri sch. met my long lost secondary sch bestfren durin new yr's eve. i reali missed her so much tat we both hugged each other tight. itz been 2 yrs since i last saw her...missed her to bitz! i asked her bout da rest, frm der i found out tat she lost contact wit dem. they, 4 of them(after i 'left' coz i used to be close wit dem till one 'stupid' incident happened), were so close. n now......drifted apart. all chose to be in their own life, their own new frenz, thier partner. i mean why are they acting this way? where are all the promises tat they make? im juz disappointed n sad. no words to sae..well da message here is kinda clear rite? im not making things up or wat.. itz thru my own experience..i repeat MY OWN!! juz treasure da moments tat uve had wit ur frenz, ur close frenz. appreciate them. n tatz wat im gonna do afterall. reali had a deep thinkin bout tis. my mind seems not at ease if i dun spill it out..heh! weird me uh....

felt guilty too. about everything. EVERYTHING tat ive done to anyone!! sat at one corner in my room in middle of nite(yest) n think back wat ive done in these 19 yrs(soon 20 alreadi..haiz!). lotz of stupid n crazey things ive done, especially wit my frenz. think back again it makes me laugh..those old times. bad, good, sad, happy memories fills inside my head. da tough life i had n those miserable moments ive got. well letz juz put aside those memories n moveon wit da newlife ahead. watz done cant be undone...

i look at u n see a fren

i hope tatz wat u wanna be

are we back now where it all began?

have u finally forgiven me?

sway away....

2006-01-03T17:07:00.000+08:00

Song: Sway
Band:The Perishers

I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that's what you've come to be
It feels as though we've made amends
Like we found a way eventually

It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole

I don't wanna hurt you
I don't wanna make you sway
Like I know I've done before I will not do it anymore
I've always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I'm coming down
Won't you be my solid ground?

I look at you and see a friend
I hope that's what you wanna be
Are we back now where it all began?
Have you finally forgiven me?

You gathered my dreams in
When they all blew away
And then tricked them back into me
You saved me I was almost dead

fareweLL to 2005

2005-12-29T12:08:00.000+08:00

oh well 3 more daez to 2006..shall sae farewell to 2005 n heLLo to 2006.. tis yr has been a rough yr for me(i guez!). lotz of things happened. lotz of things have changed. as for me, hmm well notink much i guez. juz da same oLd hazirah....or shld i sae i do change?? hmm i dunnoe...shall not sae much.

any resolution??...bet u all have..dun reali believe in tis resolution thingy coz wateva i said will either neva turns out well or neva even happens. i hate it wen i said sumtink which i reali gonna do it but in da end i take back my words...am i such a fooL? am i such a coward?? yeah i noe action speaks louder den words but y am i acting tis way??...isnt tat stuPid?...let ppl sae wat dey wanna sae bout me. i juz dun give a sH*t..dun give a damn bout it. im juz being myself, living da way i am, listen to wat my heart says, follow wateva my mind is telling..weLL tatz ME.(degil eh aku ni)
evry yr is still da same for me. juz a change of surroundings i guez. oh wat da hecK!!... guez i'll juz go wit da flow....no need to think too much coz im sO lazy to think..hah!!

maths common test is on da 4th of Jan. didnt even start a single sHit...haiz...more test to come..better start my revision.

pathetic dae...haiz..

2005-12-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

weLL notink much todae...stay hm in da dae wit my aunt n my kuzzin here at my house...eat non-stop seh..heh! went out in evenin to meet han..well as usual he's lazy to go work tmrw n so he took mc..pemalas giler seh ni bdk!! aiyoh reali dunnoe watz happenin to him.. but nvm at least gotta spend da time wit him..tmrw meetin him again..heh!

hmm wonder wat sher doin rite now...eh gal did u go out? ;) supposed to go to one of my fren's wedding thingy but guez i cant go...im so sori...
any plans tmrw? i reali dunnoe wat to do seh for tis 1 wk break. wanna study BUT too lazy..hehe wat do u expect...but i need to brush things up. complete proj and study watz needed for common test...

damn! nxt sat im workin graveyard shift!! arRggh!! ppl all countdwn...while me bz working...wat da heCK?!! nvm lar at least got xtra pay...haha..xtra $40 ar!! wEe~ cant wait for my pay nxt month ni...ish tak sabar seh..heh!!

wEe~

2005-12-24T21:32:00.000+08:00

wOohOo~~ oohh gosh!! im so tired seh...went to work juz now n well was very bz seh...ppl keep on coming non-stop...n how stupid i am to go work yest...i tot i was workin BUT wen i reached der, my manager was like..'zrah ape ko buat kat sini?' n i said, 'aku keje pe nari kan??' n he said, 'mane ader nari sham lar!' n i was like wat da f***k?!....aiyah guez im too 'rajin' ar tatz y..hahah bLuek!! tot of meetin him todae but well i have anoder 'date'...who?! my kuzzin lar..waHahhaha!!

nxt wk no skoL...weE~ BUT have to study for my test da following week n have to complete my bLoody proj...haiz......guez i received enuf warning letter frm ALL of my modules..yuP!! ALL of it!!

evryone seems to be 'MIA' for dis wkend....ppl go holidae while me stuck here in spore!! wat da heLL?!! well supposedly go KL but tak jadi..haiz..only my parents going..not fair seh!!! im soO jealous...heheh!

wanna go sentosa ar...reali miz goin der...anyone care to join me??....hmmm nxt wk i guez...feeL free to buzz me up k....;p

LaLaLA~~

2005-12-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

juz reached hm frm bugis... was supposed to go skol juz now BUT end up at kembangan..hehe!! oh wat de heLL..only have 1 hr lecture. too lazy to go so asked my fren to sign my attendance for me...how smart!! hahah had my object-oriented pract test yest. was badly done. coz i reali have no idea wat's all about. main hentam je all da question padahal all of da quest were quite easy...quite only lar eh....
my report deadline is dis thurs n havnt start a single shit!! dAmn!! muz reali wake up gal!!!

missing sum1 badly. he didnt msg me. where is he??....haiz......... ohh ok he juz msg me...heheh

F**cked uP!!

2005-12-19T09:28:00.000+08:00

reached skol rnd 9.20am n i was damn late for my first lesson(as usual!) n so i decided not to go..like for wat seh...n rite now im stuck here in da skol lib scribbling tis shitz..haiz!!
proj due todae n guez wat??!! my comp hang at de very last min!! i was like WAT DA F**K??!! all da shitz tat ive did gone to da drain...haiz.....wat am i suppose to sae to da lecturer seh..confirm get 0 ar....eh seriously seh..bleh jadi giler tau....i did da thing in da middle of da nite..only had 2 hrs of sleep...n i dun feel like doing it all over again...very tiring...haiz.....

ape lar nak jadi ngan aku ni...........

haiz.........

2005-12-18T18:35:00.001+08:00

proj due:

Mon 19 dec time:9 am(which is during one of my lesson time)

haiz......wat am i suppose to do!!!

dammit!!

finaLLy.....

2005-12-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

create a new one..coz i got irritated wit da old blog tat created a few daez ago..hahah

so yeah..

still in process here...